This is James Frederick's story of the challenging first years of his recovery of mind, body and spirit. In rare detail the author engages the reader not only to follow him but to listen to his conflicting thoughts as he struggles to convince himself and his family that he can change. We listen in on his desperate phone call for help and walk with him to meet the men who will help turn his life around.

We watch him gather his shattered life together with the help of a Higher Power, family and others in and out of 12-Step Fellowship. Although he experiences repeated setbacks, through them he gains new footholds and springboards to change.